Careless Whisper

Hell Hath No Fury

My whole world had literally been ripped apart from me and crumbled into a million tiny pieces in a matter of seconds. 
For days..I felt nothing. 
There was just this big gaping hole inside me that couldn't be filled. 
I was numb. 
I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, I couldn't sit, I couldn't stand, I couldn't talk, I couldn't think. 
Nothing I did helped. 
Eventually after a couple weeks..the shock wore off. 
And I was forced to deal with the fact that my life, my love, my best friend really wasn't coming home to me.
I can't explain that feeling I have, it's the most undescribable horrible gut wrenching terrible pain I've ever felt in my entire life.

a tie. a knot. a love. (Happy Eid Mubarak)

To All My Beloved Family, Teachers And Fellow Friends..

For This Coming Syawal, 

I Would Like To Take This Opportunity To Make Amends And To Apologize For What I Said To You, 

I Know Those Words Were Harsh And Unfair..

I'm Sorry I If I Took You For Granted Or That I Told You I Didn't Care..

Sorry For The Heartache And Causing Any Undue Pain 

And 

Sorry For What I Dished To You And You Didn't Give Back The Same..

And I'm Really Sorry For Apologizing But I Don't Know What To Do

Because

I Don;t Wanna Be Sorry If My Life Doesn't Include You..!!

You Guys Are Like My Brothers And Sisters..

I Love You Guys For Whatever Reasons It May Demand In This Very Whole Universe..

Thank You Again For Your Support, Time And Understanding..

I Really Appreciate Every Single Things That You Have Done For Me..

Until Next Time, 

I Wish You Guys

HAPPY EID MUBARAK..!!

May This Syawal Brings You And Your Family A Warm And Blessed Raya Ever,

Shower With Love And Happiness,

Laughters And Joy..!!

~xoxo~

Di Dalam Rindu Ku Menangis

Suburnyanian sukar dimadah
Mekar jiwa dilamar mimpi
Kasih sepantun tulisnya sudah
Hanya rindu ikatan hati
Berlumpur intan
Seri masih bertandang
Bagai bulan dipagar bintang

Angin menderu ombak mengalun
Melambai daun sedang rimbun
Sarat di hati rindu ditanggung
Airmata pun tak terbendung
Dikau kusanjung
Cinta suci terulung
Di jiwaku semakin ranum

Terpadamlah gundah di hati
Setenangnya air di kali
Hilanglah resah terpancar naluri
Janji yang diikat teguh berdiri

Lafazlah sejujur hatimu
Setulus halusnya budimu
Damaimu sesudah gerimis
Bawa daku bersama meniti pelangi

Ku yakin di sana menanti
Mahligai kencana abadi
Disaluti sutera asli
Selimut cinta aroma harum kasturi

Kasihmu beraja di hati
Kasihku bertakhta di jiwa
Walaupun tiada di mata
Cintamu tetap sebati

Sungguh bererti kasih dan sayang
Seribu sumpah kau tunaikan
Cinta berkurun kasih berzaman
Kerana sayangku turutkan
Guruh di laman
Umpamanya gurindam
Mengusap di hati yang rawan

p/s: maaf kerna post kali ini emo sket..

Sannah Helwah Ya Gamil

happy bday kameel..!!!

semoga hubungan kite semua akan sentiase selamanya biaq susah dan senang..!!
lautan yg berapi daratan yang berduri,
bagi ku bukan musibah malahan hikmah bahagia..

love you babe..!!
muax!!! 

Ya Allah Tunjukkanlah Kepadaku Hidayah Dan RahmatMu

kenapa lah minggu nie terasa sangat membebankan..??
semua bende rase cam tak betol..
rase nak marah je minggu nie..
kenapa lah rase sangat tak bahagia sejak akhir2 nie..??
Ya Allah, tolonglah hambaMu ini..
kepada Mu aku meminta dan mengharapkan kebahagiaan dan kerahmatan Mu..!!
gembirakan lah hati hambaMu ini yang tengah gundah gulana..
berat sungguh dugaan dan ujian Mu..
permudahkanlah urusan hamba Mu ini Ya Allah..
tetapkanlah iman dan taqwa ku kepada Mu Ya Allah..
sesungguhnya, kepada Mu tempatku mengadu dan meminta..
kepadaMu aku berserah Ya Allah..
Amiinnn..!!

That’s What I Try To Tell Myself Anyway

A few days later I accepted a friend request from you. By doing so, I had not expected an adventure to develop. A romance. The messages started out superficial. Surface level. But as time went on, and with each response the emails started to form depth, insight and understanding. Revealing and exposing ourselves. I started to know you. And you me. I started to fall for you. For your dreams, your thoughts, your passions. You became my ultimate crush. I kept this to myself, how silly it was to fall for someone over messages.

It would be a month until I would return. You were true to what I had thought you to be. I was nervous to be around you. You gave me butterflies. We walked down the pier, as I questioned you about your likes, your loves, your dislikes, your dreams. Everything. I wanted to soak you in. I wanted to know all about you. I had not spent enough time with you, let alone time by ourselves. The night before you left, I helped you packed though sorrow surrounded me heavily. You gave me a look that I would never forget. Nobody ever looked at me that way. With such desire. Such admiration. Such regret. I wish I could have seen me through your eyes.

You went to a new place. The messages rarely continued now. But still, the friendship deepened. My feelings intensified. It was more than a crush. You were a person I was truly, madly and deeply in love with. That’s what I try to tell myself anyway.