They Say It's Unrealistic

Who do I choose, what do I do.. 

I want to be in love though, its all around me, I don’t want to be alone, I want to experience that feeling, its all part of growing up, I want my very own teenage romance..

I want snuggles and winter days in bed together and someone to hold my hand and love me for me and kiss me on the head..

~xoxo~

The Way I Miss You On This Blessed Day

Dear Heart,

Memories of Moments Celebrated Together,

Moments That Have Been Attached In My Heart Forever,

Make Me Miss You Even More On This Eid Mubarak,

Hope It Brings In Good Fortune And Abounding Happiness 

For You, My Love..

To All My Beloved Family, My Best Friends, My Fellow Friends,

I Wish You Guys

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL ADHA..!!

May This Raya Brings Lots And Lots of Happiness And Joy In Your Life..!!

I Love You Guys Very Much..!!

~xoxo~

It's You, It's Always Been You

Lesson Learned

Hellooooooo~

Hoy Hoy..!!

It's 4.30am now and i just barely woke up for Subuh prayer..While waiting, I thought I could type some crappy things here..

I don't have even an idea what to share with you guys but I have one question..Maybe two..

The question(s) goes like this.. 

Have you ever wondered why you were always get dumped at the end or where did you go wrong when you were in a relationship..??

Haven't you..??

So let me tell you about my experience and thoughts..

In some odd way I always find seem to find lovers with a superpower, a special one that you can't see on their appearance..

They have the ability to fool me..To make me believe and trust in them and then break my heart..

I couldn't sleep or eat for days..Barely talked..All I kept thinking was; why..??why..??why..??I trusted you..I did..!!

I did everything that I possibly could for you, only you..I ignored friends for you, I swallowed my deepest pride whenever you were grumpy and started to pout..I put up with you even when I really didn't want too, I listen to your problems or when you complained about getting a B in a stupid essay instead of a A..I even worried when you got sick and even wiped away the blood for your leg when you hurt yourself..

But the thing is, I may be pretty and gorgeous but I'm so not like all the weak goody-bitches..I am strong and every time someone pushes me down I will get back up again..

At the end you were the bad one..

I'm so sorry..

Sorry for you..

Sneek Peek

Helloooooooooo putas..!!!

first of all, i'm done studying and sick of it..!!motiifff kannn nak admit dah abis study..!!padahal bertimbun2 lagik lectures, objectives and student presentations x disentuh2 lagik..disentuh2 katenyer..oppss..!!hahaa..

tapi memang laa dah tak sabar2 kan nak mid sem nie..dah tak larat dah nak mengadap notes segala bagai nie 24/7 kann..sentappzzz..!!bajet laa kan nak mengadap camtuh..tengok movies lagik ade..kaco housemates..!!biase la cik jah oii, orang single mingle nie memang ske wat bende2 berfaedah camni..kaco sane kaco sini..usik sane usik sini..ye dok..??hihihihii..

anyway, actually tak hadoo mende pon nak cite..tapi TETAP nak ade post gak untuk hari jumaat yang penuh barakah nie..tak nak kalah ngan cik nau dan cik hajar yang gaayyyggeeehhh berblogging tuh..opppss..!!sentaappzzz dorang klu bace post aku nie kann... (amik tudung periuk tutup kepala)

arini, ape jaa yang aku wat..??errmm..selain gi souq pagi2 buta (mak2 sangat kann, gi pasar, jemur baju, masak2), study skek, tido skek..tuh laa kot..mengantok glerr after lunch nasi lemak td..nodi letak drug nie..ke ubat tidoo..motiiff..?? (amik baju tutup dada) hahahaaa...teringat mase kat umah, klu my mum wat nasi lemak, sah2 sume lepas tuh trus tido..berhantu sangat nasi lemak my mum ok..xyah nak telan2 ubat tido klu insomnia nie, makan jaa nasi lemak my mum x pun cik nodi..hohohooo..pape pon dua2 masakan dorg pon sodapp jaaaa..!!konyang den nie hah..!!

because of arini my turn to cook so at first cam tak tau nak masak ape for dinner kitorang kann..nak masak nasi ayam kaa nasi berlauk kaa..confused..!!tapi nami dah merengek2 nak makan nasi ayam, mak masak jaa laaa..!!anak2 mengidam kaann, ape ble wat..kang kempunan, sentappzzz lagik, sapo nak jawab kaannn..??ohohohooo...memang kick laa, berpeluh2 makan ditambah lak ngan kepanasan dalam umah nie..biase laa, orang2 hot sume dlm umah nie..masing2 mengeluarkan haba sendiri..oppss..!!

ok laa, esok sambung lagik..!!ade cerita nak diceritakan di post akan datang..tp semesti nyer cerita dalam cerita..apakah ituhh..??tungguuuuu..!!hihihihii~

~xoxo~

I Just Wanna Jump In There

When I read all these stories, all these sad love stories about broken and tough love, I can’t say I don’t want to be there. I’ve never even had a boyfriend, and I’ve never kissed someone, just for fun. I really want someone who loves me. You all have or have had someone, so you know what it’s like. But I don’t. So I don’t care if it doesn’t work out, or if I get broken the first time. I just want to feel what it’s like to be in love, to have someone. Therefore I almost wish to be where you all are. Though I’m not saying you should feel good when someone breaks your heart, I’m saying I would prefer getting broken than not feel love at all. Everything is about love. Movies, books, songs, reality. And I’ve never even felt it. It feels like I’m outside, watching everyone else walk two and two, hand in hand. I just want to jump in there and be a part of it. But how? I have no idea…

~xoxo~

I'm Sorry

SOMETIMES I GET JEALOUS THINKING THAT

SOMEONE ELSE COULD MAKE YOU HAPPIER 

THAN I COULD.

I GUESS IT'S MY INSECURITIES ACTING UP.

BECAUSE I KNOW I'M NOT THE PRETTIEST, SMARTEST

OR MOST FUN AND EXCITING.

BUT I DO KNOW THAT NO MATTER

HOW HARD AND LONG YOU LOOK;

YOU'LL NEVER FIND SOMEBODY THAT 

LOVES YOU LIKE I DO.