If You Walk Away I Will Suffer Tonight

Dear Heart,

I Dedicate This Song To You Coz I'm Bound To You..

Dolce Far Niente

It's January, Happy New Year And Have A Great Coming..!!

You Haven't Seen The Last of Me Bitch..!!

I Wanna See This Movie..!!!

Feeling broken
Barely holding on
But there's just something so strong
Somewhere inside me
And I am down but I'll get up again
Don't count me out just yet

I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I'll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
You haven't seen the last of me
You haven't seen the last of me

They can say that
I won't stay around
But I'm gonna stand my ground
You're not gonna stop me
You don't know me
You don't know who I am
Don't count me out so fast

I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I'll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
You haven't seen the last of me

There will be no fade out
This is not the end
I'm down now
But i'll be standing tall again
Times are hard but
I was built tough
I'm gonna show you all what I'm made of

I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I'll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
I am far from over
You haven't seen the last of me

No no
I'm not going nowhere
I'm staying right here
Oh no
You won't see me begging
I'm not taking my bow
Can't stop me
It's not the end
You haven't seen the last of me
Oh no
You haven't seen the last of me
You haven't seen the last of me

Joyful And Triumphant

Dear Heart,

you’re weird..first you gave love a chance, loving the wrong person for so long..you gave it all you had and let yourself open without thinking that you’ll ever get hurt and for two long years, you loved with all you had even though you knew that the other heart did not love you as much..you kept loving and loving, hoping that you & the other heart will meet half way..then the time actually came..the time where you got hurt..not just a short amount of hurt; you were hurt for half a year..or half a year, you were completely broken & shattered..so broken that everybody noticed it..you didn't want to give love a chance again; never again..why would you give love another chance when you have gone through so much bullshit and lies..??

one of my old friends once said to me “They ripped out your heart; stepped all over it, crushing it to pieces and then just left it there without even cleaning it up” and honestly; I’m very sorry..so so so so so sorry that I put you through so much hurt & pain..that is why I kept you locked up..I was never going to put you through more pain..so when this new light came in my life, I kept you locked up even though you kept telling me to go for it while my head kept telling me “no” because I wanted to keep you protected..but you kept trying to come out and over power my mind..so after all the things you’ve been through you still wanted to open up to this newbie , which amazed me..this newbie must be something special if you wanted to give love another try just for this one new..then finally, you over-powered my mind..I listened to you rather then my head..I’m glad I did listen to you heart because I can honestly say that I am truly happy and I feel as if you are healed..you are so much better..you helped me turn from that bitter heart broken guy to this happy smiling guy..after that six months, you decided that you’ll give love another chance..

thank you because I have a good feeling about this one..a very good feeling..thank you for telling me to go for it..I’m so happy because even though I put you through so much pain, hurt, tears, bullshit, lies, and torture, you are still willing to give love another chance..

~xoxo~

It's Winter Now Yet I Am Still Stuck In Summer

Dear friend,

   I miss you more than I can bear..It feels like I have heartburn from eating too much spice..all the time..but I know it’s just heart ache from missing you..you may be miles away and the possibility of being together, parallel universes and light years apart..but I can’t stop thinking about you, about the times we spent together..our time together was brief but perhaps it’s better that way; I remember every detail about the moments we spent together..remember verbatim the jokes you told me, the stories, everything..and I can’t help replaying these memories..on the train, in class, while I’m supposed to be studying..I can’t listen to Pandora anymore because every song is about love and every song reminds me of you..

   I miss you, I miss you..I miss you..and I am still stuck in summer..

Dear Self,

   it’s winter now..get over it and get on with life..you’ll find someone who seems perfect for you in every way..but now…it’s really time to focus on life..

~xoxo~

Maybe One Day I'll Understand

hellooooo~

sejak akhir2 nie xtaw nape laa ramai sangat nak kawen..!!

best sangat kaa kawen nie sampai sume orang berebut2 nak tunggu giliran..!!

x paham tol laa..!!

wat sakit kepala jaa kawen2 nie..!!

laen laaa klu berpanjangan kaann..!!??

oppppss..!! *larikk

kawen..??

ape erti perkahwinan kat aku..??

errrmmm..nothing i assumed..!!

nak taw nape..??

first of all, perkahwinan tidak menjanjikan kebahagiaan..!!

lame2 klu asyik jumpe muka yang same jaa x ke bosan..!!

nanti mula laa nak gi carik laen..!!

gi menggatal ngan orang laen yang lebih mude or mungkin ade yang taste die orang2 yang berumur..!!

ye laa cik jah, orang berumur nie kan experience segala bagai kate nyer kaann..

understanding laa konon2 nyer..!!

padahal sume truh hanyalah sandiwara semata2..!!

padahal dorang duk menyembah poket yang tebal berkepuk2 tuh adalah..!!

chhooyyy sangat orang2 yang macam nie..!!

tp mmg laa kan, nowadays money is everything..!!

ko hengat dengan hanya bersandarkan pada LOVE ko ble kenyang..!!

ko ble nak shopping dengan LOVE..!!

ko ble dapat keja yang hebat2 dengan hanye LOVE..!!!

tidak yer..!!

saya ulangi lagik tidak hokeeyyy adik2 sekalian..!!

HELL NOOOOO bitches..!!! *emos*

second, tak semesti nyer setiap relationship tuh perlu di akhiri dengan perkahwinan..!!

sape kate angkat kaki..?? :P

it's such a turn off event laa..!!

come on laa, who needs it nowadays..!!

plus, monogamy best kaa..??

errmmm..

x best laa..!!

nanti terkongkong dan terikat dengan segala peraturan..!!

bosannnn..!!

nanti kang sume benda nak kena report..!!

even nak gi toilet pon nak kena report gak..!!

x paham btol dengan orang2 camni..!!

dan sangat laa x paham dengan orang2 yang ble tahan dengan keadaan yang sangat laaa babeng nie..!!

dah hilang akal kot..!!

klu aku sorry laa, angkat kaki laa aku cabut larik..!!

bek polygamy lagik best..!!

oppssssiiee..!! :P

plus, xde laa merana jiwa raga kan nak kne jaga hati dan perasaan sebelah pihak lagik..!!

single lagik best y'all..!!!

xyah nak pening2 kepala sampai migrain pk hati dan perasaan mereka..!!

nie baru skek, klu bercerai kaa hape nanti, x ka lagik menjadi2 kang korang tuh..!!

haaaiissshhh..!!

xde laaa aku nak kaannn mende2 nie..!!

x perlu sangat hokkeeyy..!!!

akhir kate, SINGLE lagik best even though korang akan rase lonely kekadang tuh..

but ape gne ade friends di sekeliling korang kann..

bajet klu korang xde special partner, korang xle nak feeling2 ngan kawan korang pulakk..!!

btol salah..??

~xoxo~

ps: nie hanyalah pendapat saya okehh..!!!tiada kena mengena ngan yang hidup ataupun yang telah tiada..!!